Learn how to break away from fear so you can step into the most valuable version of yourself! Your authentic self! Leave fear, and the ego behind for good by simply understanding your habits, and limiting beliefs!
Are you ready to break fear down into itty bitty pieces?
Want to look your ego in the face and tell it how valuable you are?
It's about time you stood up for yourself!
I am taking many different actions in my life leading me to the point of being the observer of my reality! Meditation has been one of the biggest keys! Getting to know myself through Personal Development is another one! Health & Fitness also key components!
I have had some MASSIVE – LIFE SHIFTING EVENTS happen over the past year!
A year ago on August 29th I turned 30! That night was the last night I will ever do hard drugs! That was an incredible decision for me… I had been dabbling, and all out messing with that shit since I was 15… 15 YEARS spent tuning out my fear… Tuning out my emotions… Tuning out my pain! I have struggled… Struggled with my value since I was a kid, and I have VERY loving, supportive parents! This was my struggle though. I have wrestled insecurities, jealousy, anxiety, over eating, struggle with weight, self imagine… This list could go on. Fear has been a part of my life for years… I had a hard time seeing past it to realize my value in many aspects of my life. I blanketed my dissatisfaction with self. I hid behind drugs! Outwardly no one ever knew! Outwardly I was always the life of the party! While inside… I was a wreck. Don't get me wrong I have had a GREAT life, and I don't regret my choices for a hot second, because my path has shaped me, moulded me and brought me to my purpose!
So anyways… I quit the hard stuff. That was a great decision for me, but I still kept drinking & smoking pot. I kept that up until mid March. I was really starting to notice this didn't serve me. Floating around in a haze kept me stuck on the couch watching TV, and trying to still fit in with my bf at the time, and his life. I was in a relationship with a partner I was no longer in alignment with. I nearly begged him to come with me… Chased him around hoping if he saw growth in me, maybe he would want to join the life I was dreaming of creating. He wasn't interested in my dream… It broke my heart… I had never felt so low… And I thought I had reached my low…
I had to decide to move on for me, no matter how hard and shitty it was going to be… The things we appreciate in life… So different. The way we are… Different… Our goals… Different. That was some tough stuff to swallow. The amount of effort it took to putty, paste, paint, garden, stain, scrub, fix, clean, build… Just to sell our house… WOW! I see why people stay in situations they are uncomfortable in… Because I put my soul into that. I had to release him from my desire for him to change. That wasn't fair of me to put that on him! Everyone deserves to live the life they choose!
Through the break up I made loads of new friends who were more in alignment with me, shared similar visions to me… One stood out in particular… This guy was helping me with my blog. We met in a marketing group that we are both a part of… It was all business. Our friendship grew pretty fast though! He was going through a divorce, and I was torn about my life feeling pretty devastated by my breakup… Making huge changes in my life, along with my circle of influence… We became great support for each other through our toughest times… We became best friends.
Once I moved out of the house and into my own beautiful space I realized I needed someone to come with me on my business trip across The Canary Islands. I shared with my friend that I couldn't find anyone who could take 15 days off to join me… Then he said ” I would go with you… If you wanted…” I WAS SHOCKED! I couldn't believe he would offer up that much time to risk meeting someone across the ocean that he had never met before… What if we hated each other?! It became VERY apparent to us that we were NOT going to hate each other…We had so many similarities that it blew our minds…
Over the course of all of this… I had been taking pretty top notch care of myself. Working on my mind daily, pairing that with fitness, and a great diet. I felt AMAZING! I even did different singing mantras for over 150 days straight! I was literally changing my DNA at a cellular level because I was taking actions in a new direction! I have not watched T.V since March 17th! I have lost 15 pounds! I am more fit then I have ever been in my life! The only thing lacking is sleep! BUT this gal is on a mission.. So sleep has been put on the back burner!
So I go on the trip… I meet my friend in London UK at the Heathrow Airport… Sparks flew the moment we saw each other! He scooped me up off the ground… And time froze… Absolutely magical… Our first date was 15 days straight! It was something from a movie! Going to have to save those deets for another article though…
I will tell you one thing… I have never felt so confident and comfortable with a man in my life! OR with myself for that matter!
WHY you may ask?!?
Well because… I discovered my value! I discovered love for myself! I had reached a new level of consciousness. It was a break through. I started to observe old behaviors as things came up. I was able to start seeing my thoughts and behaviors for what they were FEAR! My ego wanted to wrestle, but I wouldn't let it interfere with my good vibration! Not this time, not the way I used to! I saw my ego and my fear for what it was. Past shit! Limiting shit that was getting me nowhere! I stuck to my new healthy choices the whole trip, and I was super active! I felt on top of my game, like I was in a new dimension!
NOW CHECK THIS OUT!
Before I left for my trip I was playing soccer 3 times a week and LOVING IT! If you want to push your fitness to a new level… Well I have yet to find a better way. SO needless to say a couple hours after I landed, and ditched my bags at home…. I went to my soccer game! I was on fire! Playing well, having a blast… Until I felt a twist, crack, pop… I messed up my left knee pretty darn good. Talk about throwing a wrench in my fitness regime!
Guess who rejoined the party? MY EGO!
I went down the rabbit hole for about 3 weeks… Fell into old eating habits! Snacking instead of working on my dream… Smashing little tubs of Ben & Jerry's – Cherry Garcia… Man that shit is good! IN SMALL DOSES! I also had my wisdom teeth out! I was in rough shape! My lack of exercise left me feeling a little lose again. I wanted to get my fitness on so badly! Slowly I started introducing light exercise back into my life. I started feeling really good! SO guess who went to soccer practice?! This gal! And guess what? It went great! I was back! I was on fire! I was super mindful of my body! Got my eating back on track! Ready for my game this past Friday… AND THEN… Within a few minutes of playing and feeling like a champ I was on the ground! I twisted my knee again!
Then back on the fear horse I rode! I bought some junk food to ease my pain… Taking me back to that crappy feeling again! I realized what I was doing half way through, and tossed that junk in the garbage mid binge!
After being on this incredible webinar tonight with Dr. Joe Dispenza…I learned that the ego turns up to test us!
The ego and fear rear their ugly faces to see if we are worthy of stepping up to the next level!
MY HIGH VIBRATION WAS THE NEXT LEVEL!!!!
I WAS THERE!
The knee was my test to see if I could hack it… To see if I could ditch this old habit of binge eating, comforting emotions with food, and avoiding my greatness… Eating instead of working on my dream… Eating out of habit…
He also mentioned that if a person keeps looking back at an event in a negative way then they are still not over that event. That is a good sign the ego still exists around that event.
I share all of this with you because I have been M.I.A for a while due to what was going on around me. I put up A LOT of walls, and was working out fears over the past few months. I put my business on hold completely! At the beginning of June I have been home as a full time entrepreneur for an entire year… But truthfully I have not been committed to consistent business building activities until mid MAY!
Now that I am committed….Things are flying faster then I could have ever imagined, and they keep getting better every day!
The Law of Attraction is a REAL THING! BUT it is something we have to manifest. We have to visualize it, and work our asses off for it! BE WORTHY OF IT! Visualize ourselves there living it!
Are you worthy of reaching your next level, and actually ready to start treating yourself like the valuable being you are?
Are you prepared to give up the things that are limiting you!?
I know I am sure am, and I am grateful for the things in life that test me… Because without them I would have no perspective, or gratitude! I am fully committed to this new level!
WHO'S COMING WITH ME?
Thank you for taking the time to read this! If it resonates with you, please feel free to share your story in the comments below, or share this article with someone you think it would serve!
XOxO Love within, love around.
Erin Nicole Bick